Monday, May 7, 2012

True-blooded Eigenmann

I haven’t seen Andi Eigenmann that fierce and firm with each word she says until that strange Sunday that I watched The Buzz. I’d like to give full credits to the entire production team of the show as the presentation of both side of the story featuring Rina Casiño (Albie’s mom) and Andi Eigenmann was really great.

Here, I would like to zoom in to Andi’s side.

When the Albie-Andi issue came out not so long ago, I never really cared. I wasn’t their fan. I am not. But, you know, the girl in me I think just stood out. Yesterday, as I was savouring the words that Rina and Andi were saying and as I focused on their facial expressions, I wasn’t able to help myself from getting astounded with Andi. She has released the tiger in her. But I still sensed her caution with every word she said. Maybe it was because she still has a little respect left for Albie being the father of her baby girl.

It was the time that I fully recognized that hurt and anger come in handy. Or maybe it is better off said that hurt and anger come hand in hand. Whatever and however the two powerful words – hurt and anger – came, let’s accept the fact that Andi was and is the most pestered person as regards the situation. She bore the child for nine months. At the onset of her pregnancy, Albie wasn’t there to guide her or at least give her emotional support. Instead, he even made the situation worst by leaving Andi. He left her with nothing but hard feelings and wounds, both emotional and physical.

“Tito Boy ayoko na po kasing tinatapak-tapakan ako. Ayoko nang mapahiya,” Andi said crying referring to why she was disclosing the then ‘private’ notes of her life with Albie.

Perfect! She should’ve done it a long time ago. But how could she do such a thing when she was drowned with the thought of being truly, madly, and deeply in love with the ‘wrong’ person? Who would, by the way? She is only human. Perhaps 98% of people will agree with me when I say that nobody will go against the person he or she loves no matter how wrong or bad the latter is.

These are my views based from what I’ve heard on the news, from what I’ve seen on the television, and from what I’ve read online. I have nothing against Albie for he has not wronged me for once. In the first place, I do not know him personally and he doesn’t know me. It is more of the-hell-I-care thing.

I only want to point out his approach in dealing with the situation. Forgive me for the word but I think he wasn’t responsible enough with his actions. He let Andi felt hellish which she didn't deserve. No one of the same breeding and standards deserves to feel such.

On the stretch of the interview, I felt how ferocious Andi has become. I felt her struggle to unravel the truth, and most of all, I felt how she strived to defend herself. 

She was once a weakling but she learned how to grow her fangs. She was once a coward but she now opts to go on the side of truth. She once protected him but she realized she must shield herself.

Nobody will do it for her but her. She is an Eigenmann.




Saturday, May 5, 2012

Why I Love Being Busy

1. I get paid. This means my job.

Reality check, who doesn’t want to get paid? Living in a state of absolute independency entails me to pay my own bills, run errands for no one else but myself, take charge of my own financial plan, decide on my own regardless of the severity of the decision-making situation I am into, and others that concern the me-myself-and-I thingies.

My job is mortgage underwriting. Hence, I am a Mortgage Underwriter. To those who do not have any idea about such, my job has NOTHING to do with writing (you know, the pure and nothing but write for the entire eight hours or more, squeezing out creative juices and melting neurons).

Basically, what I do is processing, verifying, and analyzing the application of a mortgage/loan applicant, and approving or rejecting the application. Justly, I have to melt and burn and liquefy and dissolve my neuronsssss. It is a whole lot of a challenge. But I love challenges so it is not a problem to me. I am actually learning to love it. I love it.

2. I forget about unnecessary “problems” that are mostly on a personal level.
      
When I am preoccupied, I tend to focus on what I am doing, and I forget about things that bother me. It helps (at least in my case). So, for a short span of time, my heart gets a little rest from troubles and my mind acquires a little freedom from worries. I love it.

3. I enjoy.

I am the type of person who does not engage into something that I don’t feel like worth it. I usually do not pay attention to matters that can be classified under the Complete Waste of Time category. Take note of the usually, though. When I am busy, it means I enjoy. That’s how simple it is. I love it.

4. I am being me.
      
I am a self-confessed busy person. It gives me a feeling of productivity. My mind never ran out of to-do’s. It even gets pretty cluttered at times due to stuff that seem to go on marathon in my head. It is no problem to me, and I actually like it. I love it.

So the formula goes like this:

Job + Enjoyment = Busy + Busy2 – Problems = Myself

Did you get it? Or did you realize how cluttered my mind is as of the moment?  :)