Officially Sad

Sitting down here
Puzzled to death
So sad and lost in oblivion--its wonderland

No idea of what to do next

Tears are free falling

Eyes are slowly swelling

Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer is coming

I can only take too much

I can only bear a lot

These tears just keep on rolling

Blurring my eyes, damping my cheeks

A friend is all I need right now

But I seem so weak to phone one

Can't even manage to text one

So I guess my own self is all I have

I am so sad

So sad to death

My heart's a temple of sadness and loneliness

I can only take too much

I can only bear a lot

These tears just keep on rolling

Blurring my eyes, damping my cheeks.

At Some Point In Time

At some point in time, you will have to let loose. You have to stop feeding other people’s ego for them to stop melting yours.

At some point in point in time, you have to be courageous enough. You have to be someone you haven’t discovered yet within yourself; who knows, that someone must’ve been someone that you really are.

At some point in time, you gotta grow little by little. Modest act of growing when summed up is a fairly big thing.

At some point in time, you need to face your fears. Escaping from it will only cause you trouble and more pain. Deal with it.

At some point in time, you have to know when and how to defend yourself. Most of the time, no one will do it for you but you.

At some point in time, you have to shed a tear. You will always have that heavy heart and cluttered mind if you do not give in. Crying may mean weakness, but never does it equal to cowardice.

At some point in time, you gotta be you. The real you. Just you.

The McDonald's-Pearl Drive Story

Wind's blowing, rain's pouring
staring at three pieces pancake
and a cup of coffee
people-watching --- chatting, walking, running, riding

A couple in the nearby table, I suppose
was trying to mend
their broken relationship

I just wish that
before the heavy rain stops;
before this gloomy day ends;
before I see someone trips and falls;
before all else end;

Their relationship will be excluded;
and that they won't break apart

Try to work it out -- my very wish for them,
for the most part.

Random Thought

It did not turn out the way I envisioned it. Maybe this time it would be better for me not to overintellectualize things. Maybe it would be better if I simply go with the flow.

I am not in denial of the fact that the hurt is still present. However, this thing doesn’t impair me in the same manner as it used to. I feel okay this way. Not fine, not good.

Just okay.